That's the story of my fucking life

so, tell me how many of you want to earn a lots of money, but haven't any idea and the other side how these motherfuckers millionaires and billionaires bitches earning tons of money and we can't i seriously doesn't have any problems with these but i just want to know why my effort doesn't mean anything, why god why? i tried and focused a lots nothing happened i m still there from where i started my journey, its such a to much waiting, I'm not afraid of myself putting effort or time but pls understand i have a time but not that much time, i m getting older and literally i haven't achieved anything yet I'm such a failure, i don't even have a high paying job, I'm literally broke but i know i have something good from someone who has nothing i ' m happy for it, but i have some dream to make it happen but whenever i tried to achieve and enjoy my dream, i don't know why i never get a chance to live it, i don't know why these thing happening to me its for my betterment or something else i know i cant see my bigger picture but you can, but pls just for one time pls let me make my dream come true, i want to earn lots of money a lot so i can take care of my family, don't think i m making  myself selfish but in this era money is everything if you don't have money you are nothing and i doing too much effort from my side to earn a lots of money but i didn't work so, god pls I'm requesting you pls help me i m seriously asking you help pls god pls god, i know you know everything and i don't need to ask but still I'm asking pls be with me pls help me out to earn it, you know what let me tell you something you always gave me a change to practice and enjoy my dreams and i even achieved it and tried my best but i don't know why every time in the last moment (pta nhi kiski nazar lg jaati hai sb khtm ho jata hai_) pls god don't do it this time do not left me alone be with me i really need your help, 

let me tell you what happened with me whenever i want to achieve something 

first i want to become a software engineer want to study science but didn't get it so its fine i tried and learn some language by myself so i can do some coding that directly affect my actual course so i decide to learn sometime so its doesn't affect my actual study course when i become serious about my actual course and profession and want to become a financial auditor and i also get a chance after so many effort to become and i grab that opportunity but in the you know what happened but that's that the history i still have some sadness for this but its ok if again I will get a chance I will give my 100 percent to achieve it,

you know why i m sharing these thing with you right now because I'm so stressed right now I not getting any positive felling and haven't made anyone that close so i can discuss these things with him and her even if I have i still doesn't share this because i know  no one care expect you, I m not buttering you but that's the reality and I know you also aware of it.

I guess I tell you everything and now i m felling little bit great 

but pls remember one thing don't take my wish for granted pls help me out i requesting you from my bottom of the heart pls help me to earn something for my family and me,

i don't ask any money and some magical shit i just want to earn pls pls open some door for me so i can achieve my target.

this is my prayer pls shree Vishnu bhagwaan ji help me out 

 that's all for today 

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